i can't.

i can't handle this.
i can't deal with life.
i have no motivation.
i just want to sleep all day.
lay down and act like im fine,
put on the fake face
so no one questions me.
i just want to be okay again.
i want my smile to be real.
i have the best things in my life.
i have wonderful friends.
an amazing boyfriend.
i just want to smile again,
and no its real...