idk.

its just so hard to be happy when everything inside me is breaking. i cant do it anymore. i cant hold on anymore...

I’m emotionally dead,
Completely drained,
I’m finding it harder and harder to keep going,
My reasons to get up everyday
Are growing slim,
That empty gnawing feeling,
Is growing worse,
And more unbearable.
I question every morning
If I should even get out of bed.
If I didn’t,
Who would even care?
If I died tomorrow,
Who would even miss me?
I don’t matter,
I’m just another person in the world,
Trying to make it through,
Going through the motions,
Not making a bit of difference.

when everythings just like the movies,. you bleed just to know youre a live.

i mean, i guess i don't really have anything to be upset about persay. but life is hard. and i know it's hard for everyone. but i feel like i'm sick of being critisized for having depression and anxiety. i try so hard everyday to mask it with the smile. to keep on going . i mean i have the best friends a girl could ask for and a wonderful boyfriend that would do anything for me. but i still can't be fully happy. in my parents eyes i can never do right. i mean i was even recently told i was a fuck up. so if that's any indication of why I'm criticized so much. i have no motivation to do anything. i would be just peachy sitting at home all day doing nothing. the only thing thats keeping me going is my friends and the fact that i'm moving out soon. it also helps that my friends keep pushing me. they're there no matter what. i mean it's the hardest thing in the world admitting that youre not okay.... but sometimes you have to get over the hard stuff to be completely happy..

i'm finally breaking.

I'm finally breaking,
i cant do this anymore.
it's getting harder and harder to continue each day.
what's the point?
you get up,
do what your supposed to do
and get yelled at for it anyway.
if i cant do anything right,
why should i keep trying?
to be honest,
the only thing thats keeping me going,
is my friends,
they're the ones,
that won't let me quit.