almost done.

Well, prom went off with out a hitch. It was absolutely amazing. I had a wonderful time with all my friends. Schools winding down. It's the senior's last week. I don't know whether to be happy or sad. Yeah I'm graduating and moving on with my life. But, most of my friends are juniors and are staying here. So I'm not sure. It's hard. I am now going off to college. New responsibilities. Growing up. I want to be don't with high school, but I'm not sure I'm fully ready to grow up. This is a stressful time. I have to get my crap together. I can't rely on my mommy and daddy anymore. And now teachers are deciding to assign a lot of assignments. I can't handle everything. On the brighter side, senior skip day is friday!!! :) I'm so excited. At 12:30 on Friday I'm going to get my second tattoo. :) It's about to be tiight. It's the brain cancer awareness ribbon and underneath it's going to say "Hope" My grandma died of brain cancer that's why I'm getting it. I already have one Tattoo. It's My grandma's birthday on my wrist. :))))

pressure

The pressures building,
going off to college,
saying good bye,
the stress is setting in,
exams, studying,
leaving home,
making new friends,
i don't want to leave,
i don't want to say goodbye,
i love my friends,
i don't want to leave them,
"You'll make new friends" they say,
but what if i don't want to,
what if i like my friends now?
i can't handle the stress,
i cant handle the pressure,
i'm struggling to stay compose,
slowly crumbling,
blow by blow.

weelll.

well, proms this weekend. i don't even know if anyone still reads my blog lol. but hey. im going to do it anyway. So i am so excited for prom. I'm going with my friend Derrik. our group is about to be sweet. My dress is like three colors, like red orange thing, and pink. I love it. i had to tan though so it would look better. School is almost over. like twelve days. it can not come fast enough. I hate it. Our school is now deciding to crack down on the rules. it's so dumb. they've been lax all year and now they want to crack down? sometimes i wish i could see what they were thinking...

welll. i have not blogged ina while so here we goo...

i wrote a new poem....

i feel like im falling like alice,
down an endless black hole,
the world curmbled,
and fell from underneath me,
now i have nothing solid to stand on on or rely on.
i just hope and pray,
that you'll be there to catch me,
when i finally hit the bottom.