awesome.

it's a breakdown.
there's nothing left to lose,
so let it all out.
it doesn't matter if people judge anymore.
all my secrets are out.
i don't care.
i know i need help,
and my body is screaming for it,
but no one ever seems to answer.
i just want to be okay again,
i want someone hold me,
and tell me everything
will be fine in the end.
it will all work out.
life always does.
but no one seems to be able to tell me that
i know they all care.
but sometimes its hard.
i've been dealing with this since i was 16
i dealt with it fine.
i cant open up to people
because every time i do
they get freaked out and leave.
i cant lose anyone else.
i cant...

it's been a rough couple of days. but i'm trying to get help. i just want to be okay again. to be able to smile without hiding something... why cant that happen?