rewind?

wheres the rewind button in life?i just want to go back. take back Tuesday night. Go back to a time when i was truly happy. before i worried about every little thing. I am not hurting the people i love, and that;s just making me hurt more. how do you tell the one person you care most about that you're not okay? how do you tell them that they make you so incredibly happy, but at the same time you're not happy with your life at all? How do you tell him that your depression is getting out of hand and you don't know how to deal anymore. It's hard opening up to someone when you feel like you've been alone for three years. every person i have opened up to has left me. I'm terrified to open up to him because it could result the same. i can't lose anyone else. i don't think i could handle it. I just want my life to be good again. I want to be happy about all the good things I have going for me... but i can't...