Struggling.

I'm struggling everyday.
it gets harder and harder to pretend I'm okay.
I'm tired of keeping the smile up.
I'm tired of acting fine.
I just want to cry.
get it all out.
But I'm afraid.
Afraid I'll scare you away.
Afraid I'll lose everything
I hold close.
Everytime I open up,
someone disappears.
But here goes nothing.
keep the smile up,
my scene isn't over.
I can't give up now.